Run, Snorlax, runnnnn!

this is Snorlax.

he's cute, he's chubby, he's adorable, he's loveable.

but.

he is fat.

so faaaaaaat.

please don't turn yourself into Snorlax.

i know that as a woman, we always have the inclination to be cruel towards our own body with the delusional assumption that we are a little fat, a bit fat, fat, too fat, over fat, extra fat, excessively fat, and all kinds of fats in the world. rarely we hear anyone saying they are too thin, thin or extra thin, aye? 

but of course, 

aaaaand that dream have been splendidly manipulated by the media a.k.a your biggest enemy by throwing tonnes of stick thin models parading on the runway wearing skimpy clothing. if you're a size 0, then you have achieve the ultra human species while size 12 earns you a dustbin label smack right on top of your forehead. 

sighhh society can be harshly judgmental.

but.

it doesn't mean you can be fat and chomp down all sorts of food that you can lay your eyes on anytime anywhere that you want as you please! 

no.no.no!

you have to make sure you keep your health in check, people.
other than the usual dietary watch out, there are no other ways to be slim and healthy other than exercising. yeah, you must drag your leg and lift your butt and hit on the track and shed those sweats till all your excessive lipids burn all the way to hell Neverland!

please don't consume all those supplement in the form of pills or drinks if you haven't start to run because the implications will be obvious in later stage of your life and then you will feel like running away that time when your wrinkles shot out by the dozen and your bladder fail to function properly. besides, running is a good form of exercise as it helps to develop your stamina, your muscle, and kind of propel you to daydream of being the next Jeremy Wariner or Usain Bolt or Asafa Powell.

so, remember, two things to do in order to stay fit and have a smouldering hot slim body :

1) watch daily diet

2) runnnnnnnnnn

*faceplam* 

Crazy, but this is me.

talks about marriage are rife among my friends. what more with the seniors flying off to marriage-land one by one it makes marriage looks like some kind of trend for trainee teachers.

of course, it is human's nature to yearn for a partner, marriage, family, kids, jobs and all. but i think there is always room for that hidden wish of ours. there's gotta be more to life than the typical expectancy, aye? 

a part of me had always wanted a normal, quiet family life where i shall have a husband, two kids maybe, a house and a Triton (both my own, ehem) and a stable job to support the basic life needs.

but, there's another part of me yearning to break away from all the typical dreams. there's a part of me that wanted something larger than that. i wanted to get married, affirmatively, but not now. i shall marry when i'm good and ready. 

i want to relish my dream of becoming a writer, a poet and a traveler first. i want to fill my youth with all the exciting things that i want. i wanted to to go to Africa and seek the company of the sun in the Serengeti, i  wanted to write at least one book before i die, i wanted to sit by the shore and gaze at the moon while reciting Shakespeare, Rumi, and Rendra. i wanted to lie on a bed of flowers in Holland and hear the seagull's cry in Newport. i wanted to visit Eiffel and Venice, and travel to Rome and Japan and seek serenity among the ruins. i wanted to bring my parents, and as many people as i can afford to, to perform pilgrimage in Mecca and be the daughter who can provide them with whatever they want in life without any hesitation. i want to learn the way of the sword and strum my guitar in New Orleans. 

i want to go on a backpacking adventure to Cambodia, Thailand and of course, covering my country first. i wanted to do it alone, free from any commitment or ties. my kids will be home schooled and they will not live according to the typical standard of the society. my son will play the violin and my daughter will play the drum. on weekends we'll be skating together. 

i plan out my life carefully, from career to kids. 

but i have never plan on the husband part because i'm not sure how to do it. or rather, i refuse to plan it. because i know myself too well. no man will be able to understand me. i will not let them control me. but it seem like a taboo to be a woman without being controlled by man. 

perhaps, i might skip on the idea of marriage and adopt a son and a daughter straightaway. 

perhaps, i will never trust man. perhaps, this is how i am destined to live. 

what is love, anyway? 

perhaps, i might end up hurting people for wanting to be myself so much.